sorry and thanks

Hey blog

So just this morning i chat with G. it was awkward, and i just knew he reads my blog quite often. anyway, so here's the thing

i'm totally sorry to you G, if you read this you would know how hard being me. how hard for me to trust with you or my 

friends. like you've read my previous posts, you have known how my friends care about me. thanks guys :) but just today

i feel like i believe in you too. you told me not to believe in you, but because you said that i feel like i wanna believe in you 

again. and then, you said it hurts when you read my blog, AAAA that made me felt real bad to you, sorry sorry sorry. maybe 

i could send 12 dozens of sorry(s) to you. all i need is your explanation, tell me everything. i really wanted you to be on my 

birthday. if you come to my birthday, it'll be my bessssst bessst bessst birthday ever. because if you come, my MIIS bests, 

and my other best (you) are there. 

But you know its hard to trust on both sides who cares about me. its between you and them. they said that maybe you're sick, 

but they know your sickness can be healed. trust me G, i love you. you know what? here's the thing, maybe you've hurt me

lots of times, but i never hate you because i love you inside out. even if i love you just as my best. i would like to have a

surprise from you, thats only my wish. but then, you would never understand how much i wanted this. non of my birthday

days are special. just twice maybe, its also only with my family. but if you're asking about my birthday with my friends?trust

me, non of them are special. that's why i wish that this birthday will be a special birthday. 

Back to the topic.....

yes, its about trust. its hard to choose which one should i trust. i trust you and i trust them. maybe 50% of your sayings are

true, and 50% of their sayings are true. thats why it is hard to choose which one should i trust. just now, i read my history

chats with you, and again i cried. i remembered my previous days, i remember the first time you knew me, i remember when

you were with her, i remember when you said you're sick, i remember everything. i even remember the day when i told you 

how much i love you until now..... 

G, i hope you read this post, i would like to say sorry, and thanks for not being mad (i know you're actually annoyed by

these posts). and the last thing i love you my only boy best :)

My MIIS bests, i love you too. thanks for you caring. pray the best for me please :) 

Love from me,

Keita Ghaisani